• Ketamine (part 1)

    After two or so weeks tapering off the last of my debilitating medications, I was finally scheduled for my first Ketamine infusion. For those following, you already know the backstory. For those new here, it was an extremely painful, long fucking time coming.

    In the weeks leading up to the infusion, I’d seen patients being wheeled, on their beds, out of and back to their rooms for EKT/ECT (electroshock) or Ketamine treatments. Including my-then roommate, a young twentysomething German woman who went for regular EKT treatments. So, I was prepared for that part. Or so I thought.

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  • London 2012

    As mentioned, a colleague approached me for the gig. I didn’t know the actual project I’d be working on, but went out of trust in my colleague, and the BBC opportunity, for the young studio in Stuttgart.

    I’m not sure what to call this colleague who brought me in. I’ll call him ‘Reinhard’.

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  • Hospital: Everything in Therapy; Therapy in Everything

    As mentioned in my previous hospital post, I had to wait a few weeks to continue tapering off the Jatrosom/Parnate (MAOI) before starting the Ketamine treatment.

    After I got situated in my room and had a tour of the facilities, a nurse brought me my schedule. A couple of my co-patients, who spoke English, sat with me to translate it. I jotted down, briefly, the gist of the activity directly on the schedule.

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  • Willkommen in Deutschland

    My work in Milan ended in early December 2009.

    We considered moving back to San Francisco at this time. Joel went to scout out the real estate market. As we feared, nothing was affordable, so we planned the next possible thing in Europe.

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  • The Drugs Don’t Work

    In an earlier post, “The Accident”, I spoke of my earlier medication trials, also with intolerable side effects.

    The usual disclaimers: not all medicine and therapies work similarly for everyone. Mileage varies a great deal, unfortunately.

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  • Politics of Gender in Design/Tech (Part I)

    I thought I might be able to cover this subject regarding my experience from 2003-2013 but, no. It will have to be broken into parts, starting in 1993. The subject of gender in the tech field is horrible, complicated and fucking endless.

    This post will be from my start of work after school, in 1992 and proceed to the end of my work in London, 2008. Part one of two parts.

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  • The Accident (2001-2003)

    Disclaimer: In this post I discuss side effects I experienced from various medications. Everyone is different, some medications work, some don’t. What hasn’t worked for me does work for someone, actually millions, of other people.

    Between 2001 and early 2002 I experienced a series of ‘major life events’ in a short period of time. In the US, when you first visit a doctor you fill out a questionnaire. The following question often appears:

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