• 11 months later…

    I’ve taken BionicFarmer offline twice now. First, in March 2018, when I entered the Charité again. Afterward, I opened it up and wrote about this second stay and my related treatments.  

    Last year, I was approached by an old colleague from SF to be on the advisory board of a new initiative on digitally-based education in Africa. After several months, this turned into work. While I felt entirely comfortable with my old colleague, I also began working with new folks. I wasn’t sure what they’d make of my experience here if they came across it. So, to be safe, I took it offline for a bit. You never know, but now I do and feel confident my colleagues would be supportive above all else.

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  • Hypocritic Oath


    [Not sure if this is simply a blog post or letter of complaint of an unethical doctor to the medical board in Berlin. I guess it serves as both.]

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  • ECT

    The night before ECT treatments I stop eating/drinking at 7 pm due to the anesthesia I’m to be infused with the following day. Something I have eventually grown accustomed to.

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  • A New Kind of Therapy

    I received my ‘Einweisung’ (admission note) in the post from my regular psychiatrist and went to the station at the hospital, where I had previously been, at the appointed time of 9am on a Tuesday. 

    It was the end of March and the central pathway to one of the main hospital entrances was getting dusted with snow.  I recall taking an extra moment to capture this image in my head as I had never witnessed snow at the hospital before. 

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  • The End of the Beginning

    This blog took a break as I was under the weather for several months. I took the site offline as I entered Charité again.  I’m now re-reading these posts to recall where I left off. I’m surprised the last post was even in 2018. So it goes.

     It’s a bit difficult to know where to pick up here for people who are following and those who haven’t. I was very ill from late 2013-2015, went to hospital in 2015 and got better thanks to the amazing folks at Charité and experimental medicine of ketamine infusions. I recovered and decided to go back to school.

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  • Ketamine (part 2)

    Another long gap between posts. Not by design but life circumstances. Finished my thesis and wrapped up my master’s.  Continuing here has been nagging at me, so here we go.

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  • Torino 2011-2013

    It’s been a while since my last post. Time for an update so I can get on with the rest of the story. I’ve been immersed in my master’s program, so all good, just busy here.

    This part is especially hard to write about. I love Torino as I’ve learned this year, where my school is based. I prefer the native term, Torino, to the English ‘Turin’ just because it sounds so much better to the ear. To my ear anyway.

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